Living in a world where Rob no longer exists is something I never imagined I would ever have to do, at least not until we were old and grey and had lived a full life together. It’s been 4 years now since he’s been gone and I still can’t believe it’s real. I have had some extremely dark times filled with so much grief and pain. Times where I truly thought I may not make it through and honestly, wasn’t sure if I even wanted to. Days where I couldn’t make myself get out of bed were extremely difficult to find reasons to hope. Hope for less pain. Hope for a different path. Hope for new beginnings. In my goodbye letter I wrote to Rob and read at his funeral, I promised him that I would always take care of our little girl and that I wouldn’t give up. I knew then that there were extremely challenging times ahead, but I had no idea how much the grief of it all would strip my soul down to where I felt like there was nothing left but a shell of who I used to be. I don’t know how I have made it through the last few years, but I’m still here. I am pushing through the hard times, forcing myself to grow, and I am not giving up. this path has led me down roads where I felt so lost and struggled to find real purpose. I knew I needed something new. Something I could find joy in. Something to help me heal. I did my first wallpaper 3 years ago in Rob’s old office in my basement. I transformed a room that I couldn’t even get myself to go in, into a beach house themed bedroom that I wanted to just sit in because it gave off such feelings of peace and hope…Serenity. After that, I started doing walls here and there for family and friends and I realized that when I was creating these spaces, I felt a new sense of self. I was taking a dull wall and changing it into something new and beautiful. New beginnings. That’s what it felt like for me.

I have been searching for purpose and new beginnings and I found it in the form of wallpaper. Being open to change has been extremely difficult and for me, wallpaper represents change, accomplishment and growth.

I’m excited for this new beginning and can’t wait to share this with with anyone who wants change. With the help of a very good friend, I have decided to create a new business around wallpaper and wall design. I have poured a little of my soul into this and I really hope to help others change their lives by adding a little more joy through beautiful walls….Serenity Walls.

Bryn has been my sole reason for pushing through the quicksand and it’s so refreshing to finally have another “why” in my life that can allow me to support her, and also continue healing.

I would love for you to check out my website serenitywalls.com and share my message of hope with anyone you think might want a little more beauty and Serenity in their home.

Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I truly would not be here without the love and support I have received the last few years, and I am forever grateful.

— AMY